You must master it

Genesis 4:6-7 (NASB) 6 Then the LORD said to Cain, “Why are you angry? And why has your countenance fallen? 7 “If you do well, will not your countenance be lifted up? And if you do not do well, sin is crouching at the door; and its desire is for you, but you must master it.”

I’m learning this lesson currently about listening to the Lord when He nudges you to do something. I hate to admit it, but it’s a lesson I’ve failed at learning many times in the past. I think as children of God, we all struggle in this area to some extent – acting when we get that nudge and not questioning the nudge or putting off the task at hand.

Yesterday I heard a secular song on the phone when I was on hold with a company, and I hadn’t heard that song in years. I went to look it up and listened to a couple different versions of it. I was enjoying the way it transported me back to an earlier time in my life where I was a bit more carefree – albeit a still lost child of God. I was actually thinking at the time “I don’t even feel the heaviness / drawing away from God that I normally feel when I listen to secular music. I guess because it’s not too bad of a song. There’s just a couple lyrics that are not in line with Him.”

Funny thing about God is that He will get our attention when we are wandering off from the fold. He warns us. Right after that, a video popped up by Colton from Seeking Wisdom Ministries – a video from a month ago that I never saw or listened to. He was speaking of this very thing – how secular music can open a door for the enemy – it’s not even necessarily due to the lyrics but the spirit under which it was written and sung, etc. If the god of this world was involved in it at all, it opens a door when we as children of the Living God open our hearts and ears to listen to it.

I was a bit taken aback how quickly God was speaking to me – and yet I questioned if that was really from Him. After all, I’m thinking “but the song wasn’t that bad…” (I’m stubborn.) I did ask for forgiveness but I don’t know that my heart really felt that I needed to. I just stopped listening to it and listened to other things and praise/worship music after that. The day was okay but I didn’t really feel His anointing on the day too much.

I got home last night and things were pretty normal / typical. I was, however, angry that my dog can’t ever learn her lesson on going outside to potty. It’s been over a year and a half and she’s still going in the house and I don’t know if anything will break her of it. Certainly nothing I’ve tried thus far. Anyway – the evening was fine other than that, but then I heard the spirits of anger and bitterness and rage next door, again. I heard my neighbor yelling at his kids and I began praying asking God to intervene before they got hurt. I also began praying against the spirits and commanding them to leave in the Name of Jesus. Things seemed to settle down over there pretty quickly.

It came across my mind (a gentle nudge) that I needed to get up and anoint my half of the duplex, to bless it and call on Holy Spirit to come and fill my home and cast out any spirit of darkness there. I didn’t act. I figured I’d do it later – and then I forgot.

This morning I woke up when my alarm went off, got up and went to start making some coffee after letting the dogs out. There again was the gentle nudge to anoint my home, to bless it and call on God to come and fill my home. I didn’t act. I put it off, thinking I would do it after a bit when I got done praying, etc etc. Then, like before, I forgot. I prayed and then sat down to read scripture, and actually got caught up in looking up some things in the concordance. Then I got ready for work, and went to let the dogs out.

When I went to let them in, I was pretty sure that I could tell that Kiki hadn’t gone potty outside – I know her looks and her actions. So I commanded her to go, and stood out there with her. She acted like she had to for a brief minute (usually a dead giveaway that she has to but is holding it). I got so frustrated with her after a half hour of telling her to go, and her ADHD mind getting distracted by a hundred things in the process. I lost it. Let’s just say she got severely warned that *today I would not be having it*. (She’s gone inside every morning this week as soon as I leave – I’ve caught her right after the fact twice and another time when she was about to go.) I’m so worn out and weary from her antics.

The spirit of anger that was next door last night and had tried to make its presence known in my side of the duplex last night was now raging in my home. In me. I hadn’t headed the voice of the Lord last night or this morning in anointing my home, myself, or my dogs. I had cracked that door yesterday by listening to secular music that didn’t even seem like I was cracking a door. I can see it in retrospect- because even in the recent past when the spirit of anger and bitterness and rage is next door, it doesn’t come over to my side. It couldn’t before. It had no door of opportunity. But I cracked that door and I didn’t completely repent from that music, and I didn’t heed the voice of God when He nudged me to anoint my home – last night or this morning. As soon as my neighbor left to go to work this morning, that spirit hung around and came right over to my house, and entered me. Now I know that I must say some prayers of deliverance and anoint my home today.

After all of this came to my realization, Holy Spirit reminded me of this verse – Genesis 4:6. For the first time I actually felt myself standing there hearing God say those same words to me. And at the same time, I began to praise God in my heart for His mercy and His grace. Thank God for His forgiveness – I’d be hopeless without Him.

Genesis 4:6-7 (NASB) 6 Then the LORD said to Cain, “Why are you angry? And why has your countenance fallen? 7 “If you do well, will not your countenance be lifted up? And if you do not do well, sin is crouching at the door; and its desire is for you, but you must master it.”

Lesson hopefully learned this time. Why am I angry? (What door have I opened to the spirit of darkness?) If I do well (follow those gentle nudges instantly), my countenance will be lifted up. (Holy Spirit will come and fill this place and cast out all the darkness). But if I do not do well (put off His gentle nudges, question when He speaks), then sin is crouching at the door (we have to open the door in order for Satan to get in – he has no authority over us, and can only get a grip on our emotions and actions if we allow him to by opening a door for him to enter. Do not give the devil a foothold.) You must master it. (Listen and heed the voice of God as He nudges you to take the next right step – He will guide you into all truth.)

Praise God for His mercy!

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