Remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old.
Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it?
I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.
I’ve once again found myself calling out to God to help me regain my spiritual footing. Asking Him why I have continued to mess up, time and time again—and at times, overwhelmed by His faithfulness through it all.
He sees the depths of my heart, and He knows me intimately. When I am walking closely with Him, I ponder that in my heart, and feel it is a tremendous blessing.
However, when I fall off the narrow course of the great men and women of faith who have gone before me, my heart longs to hide itself from His presence, in the same fashion as our first ancestors in the Garden. I want to hide in the shame of my heart that has somehow—so quickly—grown cold before Him. But He is showing me that the old is being shed bit by bit (maybe much too slowly for my own liking), and the new is slowly coming forth.
Spring is a time of renewal. Today, though, it feels more like Fall. The air is cold and wet, after a couple of days of rain that was heavily prayed for in our area recently. But underneath the grey skies and damp cold breeze, the birds chirp happily and the trees continue to praise Him with new growth, bringing their once barren branches new life. I went outside to attempt to capture the essence of the sun’s rays (as I picture His glory) washing through the wet clouds, casting a light of hope down upon His creation. As I began to snap pictures, I noticed for the first time these buds breaking forth from the branches that just weeks ago looked like they would never come back to life.
We, too, may remain stagnant and stuck in some sort of wormhole, repeating days on end of spiritual blandness, darkness, sometimes even disparity. But as God as our Father, we know that it will only be for a duration, a season, a time.
God sees what is going to come of this wilderness time in our lives. I heard my pastor say today “God, in His omnipresence, is already in our future. It’s us that has to catch up.”
Isn’t that an amazing thought? Just like Gideon, He sees what He has created in us. He looks past our imperfections and failures as defining characteristics. He sees who He made us to be—not who we see when we look in the mirror.
When I heard my pastor say that, my question to God was “What am I going to look like to You in the future? How am I going to get out of this mess of a rut I’m in now?”
You know, as His child, I want my Daddy to be proud of me. Even if I have been stubborn. Even if I have been insecure in my identity. Even if I have been prodigal for a time. Deep down, there is a part of me in which I want to know that 5 years from now, He will be proud of me. I want to know that 30 years from now, He will look upon me and say “That’s My girl!” I want to know that where I am now is not where I am going to be stuck forever. I want to measure up to His standards. And yet, I fall short every day.
He reminded me in that conversation that He is my Daddy—now and forever. And He always will be working on me to make me more like His Son. For some, it takes more time than others.
He reminded me this evening as I looked toward the heavens and took in His glory, that He is still in the business of making all things new. Like the old dead pods that this tree continues to hang onto, sometimes it is hard to let go of our sinful ways. But God in His grace and mercy will bring about small changes in us, so that light begins to shine again and that childlike faith fills our souls once again. And the more we let go of those old dead seeds of sin, the more He can produce the fruit that His righteousness brings.
Holy Father, may my life have meaning to it. May I awake to Your call and serve You as You have so graciously served me in the form of the sacrifice You made for me—Your Son, Jesus, crucified for my sin. May my flesh be crucified with Him and may I live out the rest of my days in humble adoration and submission to You, Father.
Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away. Behold, the new has come! 2 Corinthians 5:17
But now you must put aside all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your mouth. Do not lie to one another, since you have taken off the old self with its practices, and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator Colossians 3:8-10
And he who was seated on the throne said, “Behold, I am making all things new.” Also he said, “Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.” Revelation 21:5